07/24/2017 – 1:20pm –
I could start by taking a screen shot of the heated exchanges that took place between 7/20/2017 and 7/23/2017- but I won’t even go there. Honestly, created drama kills me. Drama is always there, it is a factor of life. I think sometimes drama is really a reaction. Control how you react to things and it changes the game in its entirety.
Communication is key. J and I communicate like nothing I’ve ever experienced before. She allows me to be the person I want to be, the better version of me. I know that this person I am will also improve. I know how my mind works. I am truly at my best when I am inspired, when I have a muse. I mean, aren’t we all?
——- Welp! —– fast forward 8/4/2017 11:10am
This is not how I planned this blog to pan out but you know, shit happens.
People lie. Dan Savage always talks about the price of admission and how we present our ideal selves. While I do think people present their ideal selves, they do nothing to represent those best versions of themselves. I can look in the mirror and acknowledge that while I am sometimes quite difficult to deal with; I am in general, a very happy person that wants nothing more than to be surrounded by positive and happy people. J lied to me. She was never stable, not in her personal life, family life, professional life nor mentally or physiologically stable. My last 11 days have been filled with complete emotional madness! In these 11 days I have totally felt every emotion known to the soul and surrounding yourself with clinically, majorly depressed people, even if it is just one person with these issues, can take a toll on your emotional health. This is no Bueno in my book. I had to tell J that I am stepping away because this is not how I wanted to carry on a relationship. The exchange got pretty heated and my final words were: “I am blocking you.” Thank fucking god for the iPhone and the ability to block numbers you no longer wish to receive call or texts from.
It has taken me a few days to center and realign myself after this bad romance.
Today after work, I go for an additional trim on my hair and taking a mini trip to CVS for a brow pencil that’s on sale and a 30% off on top. Mutually eating and buying my feelings today and I am okay with this. Tomorrow, I’ll get back on track, gym at 8am.
Now, off to finish my Friday..
XOXO – always offensively yours- D
**** started this on 7/24/2017 – thought that I finished it up and posted it on 8/4/2017 – but that was not the case – I saved the draft and didn’t post it on accident. So here I am posting this on 8/7/2017 –